All that hurts in life (Victoire)

[Teddy Lupin]

Teddy shook his head.She had not noticed, his pain.He gently let her slip of his lap and got away from her.He wasn't sure how to tell her.He was tired of fighting his feelings, though at times it was the only way."Victoire, that's not the only reason I can't be with you.You know what I am, and I just can't subject you to that.Plus I know the Headmistress might let us be together, but what about students.If I give you a good grade it could easily said that it's because I favor you and I am with you and all.There is also the possibility that you others may think we sleep together, or you use the Veela on me to get that good grade.I don't want you to go through that."

His hair change a dark deep red so she would see that he felt anger.He didn't want to show it more then this, as most wouldn't know how he felt.He was using all this as an excuse.He wanted to be with her so bad, though he was so afraid that he would lose it form holding back as he most often did.He turned away form her so she would see his anger show in his face.Though he knew she knew that when his hair changed to darker colors that were not his own natural color that he was mad.

He ran his hands over his face, and let his love for her and the anger he bottled up fester and fight inside him.He couldn't decide what to do.He could see them together, he had loved her since the first moment he had seen her.Though because of his violent behavior and that he wasn't sure she had ever liked him back he held these feelings in.For so long they had fuel rage, that he was unsure of who he was.He let these thoughts continue to fester wondering what was going on in her head.Anything would be better then his own.

[Victoire Weasley]

Victoire looked at him as he spoke. Some of what he said made sense to her, but she didn't care. She loved Teddy more than he would ever know and when she was not with him she felt like she was being torn up inside. She didn't want to continue to be without him; it was too hard. She just needed to find a way to show Teddy that it would be okay. Maybe then he would change his mind.

"Teddy I know what you are and I also know that you would never hurt me," Victoire said softly. "I don't care what the other students would say. I get good grades as it is and they think it is because we are such good friends. It doesn't matter what they think, what matters is what we know in our hearts is true, Teddy."

Victoire looked away from Teddy as she noticed that he changed his hair to red. She sighed softly knowing that he was angry. She took a deep beath, wanting to know the real reasons that he didn't want to be with her. What she woudl kill to be a mind reader like Katherine was. It would be so much easier; she would know everything that he was thinking.

Victoire then started to think back to when she and Teddy had first met. It was so long ago. She and Teddy were both so little and they had become the best of friends. At family gatherings she and Teddy would always run off alone to play together. As Victoire came closer to the age that she was now she realized her feelings for Teddy. They were much more than that of a friend's. She loved Teddy with all her heart and just hadn't been able to tell him because she didn't know how he felt.

[Teddy Lupin]

Teddy heard her speak, and as though she was still using the veela he turned around and ran his fingers through her hair.He wanted to say so much. He wanted to tell her that he would never hurt her, but he couldn't promise that.This scared him the most.He let his hand go to her cheek, as his hair changed back to it's normal brown."Victoire I told you we can't be together please leave it at that.Besides I believe we are fourth cousins, once removed.That would be odd to love your cousin I think.Victoire understand please.It's better that we stay friends."His eyes held sadness for just a few moments, though soon changed to something less emotional.He was again holding back his instinct, though part of him was fighting to kiss her once more.

[Victoire Weasley]

Sadness and anger had overtaken Victoire. She sighed and shook her head as she listened to Teddy's words. She didn't want to hear those things from him. She wanted to hear that they could be together. He should have been able to see that it was all okay by looking at everyone else. Todd and Manda were doing great and when Ryan and Katherine had been together they had been great as well. The love that they shared was something that no one could tear apart. Why couldn't she and Teddy have that?

"Fine," Victoire said as she got off of his lap, pushing his hand away that had been on her cheek.

Victoire turned away from Teddy as her eyes flashed red for a moment with anger. She didn't want it to be this way. When her eyes went back to their normal hazel she turned and looked at Teddy. Her eyes were now sad as she looked at him. There were a few moments of slience as she looked at him.

"I'll be going then," Victoire said softly. "I have a lot of homework to do."

[Teddy Lupin]

Teddy saw the sadness in Victoire's eyes, which made his eyes sad.He wanted so badly to just have her go so he didn't hurt her, though at the same time he wanted her in his arms.He let his appearance change to which his face was not so long.He looked allot like his father now.He looked at her back for those few moments then as she said she had homework he went to her.He held her so she couldn't get away."Victoire please don't leave, at least not yet.I don't know what to do here.I am scared for your sake Victoire.I have hurt my grandmother scared her beyond reason.I couldn't stand it if I did that to you."

He stroked her cheek and just looked at her for a few seconds with sad miserable eyes."I was told that my father had the same thoughts, though he was not as dangerous as I am.He changed every full moon.I don't know if he had an ability, but if he did he never used it.All I know is that I don't like to change.It hurts every time I do.Then I don't realize but I hold back my emotions, feelings, and instincts.I bottle everything up inside so I don't have to face the problems.I want to be with you so bad, but I am scared that because of this I may hurt you."He continued to hold her.In a way it felt good to get that off his chest, though at the same time he still felt as though he had everything still in him and his heart was heavy with weight.

[Victoire Weasley]

When Teddy came to her and held her Victoire started to struggle to get away, but soon gave up, finding that it was hopeless. He was much stronger than she was. Victoire buried her face in his chest as he spoke, telling her not to leave. She didn't know what to do. The emotion was building up inside her and she was finding it hard to hold it back anymore. When he was done speaking for the first time she looked up at him.

His hand upon her cheek made Victoire forget what she was thinking. She just looked at him for a few moments until he started to speak again, this time about his father. She listened intently, trying to sort through her thoughts. Victoire didn't know what to say anymore. She just continued to look at him as he spoke. When he finished Victoire opened her mouth to say something, but quickly closed it as she searched for the right words. Soon the right words came to her.

"That's a chance I am willing to take," she said softly as she looked up at Teddy. "Teddy I care about you more than anything and when I am not with you I don't feel complete. I just wish I was able to meet your mother. I want so bad to talk to her about all of this. My mum doesn't understand. Your mum went through the same thing and she and your dad stayed together. Teddy, don't you see that it can work. I know that you would never intentionally do anything to hurt me. I also know that being with you is a risk, but it is one that I am willing to take."

[Teddy Lupin]

Teddy sighed at her words of meeting his mother.Though before he spoke he let her finish.He nodded and sighed once more."Yea I wish the same.If only I could meet them, maybe things would be easier.I wouldn't feel like this all the time.I hate what I am.I wish there was a cure for werewolves."He waited for a few minutes before he spoke again."I can't promise you allot, I can't promise that I will always have a job, or that I won't hurt you.What I can promise though is that I will always love you.Let's go talk to the Headmistress."He took her hand and led her out to the office of the Headmistress.When there he knocked, hoping she was in.Also hoping that she would allow them to be together.

[Victoire Weasley]

"Yeah, but there is no way for us to meet them now," Victoire said as she looked down. She looked back up when she heard Teddy wish about there being a cure for werewolves. "Teddy, don't wish for a cure for werewolves. You are who you are and I love you for that. I don't know if I woudl feel the same about you if you didn't have that part of you. It would be like half of you was missing."

After a few moments of silence Teddy spoke again. Victoire watched him, listening to his every word. Was he really going to be with her? Victoire couldn't help but smile. It was perfect. Now they just needed to talk to the Headmistress. Hopefuly she would let them be together.

"Oh, really Teddy?" Victoire said as they made their way to the Headmistress's Office.

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((Posting for the Headmistress in a moment))

[Headmistress Jessica]

Headmistress Jessica was sitting at her desk in her Office. She was glancing around at all the pictures of previous Headmasters and Headmistresses and listening to them talk about all the rumors around the school when one caught her intrest. It was about the Defense Against the Dark Arts teacher, Teddy Lupin, and a student, a Miss Victoire Weasley. Headmistress jessica raised an eyebrow as she listened to this bit of news, only interupting her focus when she heard a knock on her Office door.

"Enter," she said softly to the door. When the door opened she was surprised at who was standing there. It was none other than Victoire Weasley and Teddy Lupin. "Ah, I was just thinkign about the two of you. How may I help you?"

[Teddy Lupin]

Teddy lead Victoire in and nodded at the headmistress. He wasn't sure how to really approach it, so he though quickly."Hello, I am not sure as to what has been said nor what you know.However I would like to speak with you concerning a matter of a law?"He was not sure if this was the right word but it was the only one he could think of at the present moment.He looked at Victoire and back to the Headmistress."I got with Victoire before I was assigned this job.I didn't think at the moment about the rule to which teacher and student can not date.So I told her that we should be friends.I started dating another teacher as it was more suitable.However I don't love her and hence I don't want to be with her.I love Victoire."His eyes followed back to her as he spoke her name.

"I want to be able to be with her, cause every moment I am away I'm not my self.I however want to keep working her, as most places from what I heard of don't hire werewolves.So I ask you for your advice or help as to what we can do.I will not take favoritism or give her better grades or whatever else the reasons are to which students are not able to date students.If we need we can talk to her parents, as she is under age."He looked back to the headmistress unsure if all this sounded bad or what not.He hoped she would know how he felt and that this meant allot to him.

[Headmistress Jessica]

"I see," Headmistress said after Teddy had finished speaking. She had had a feeling that he would come to her and ask her to make an exception to the rule. There was just one problem with that. If she made an exception for them she would have to make an exception for the countless others that asked her to do the same thing. By doing that she would be putting her own job on the line.

Headmistress pursed her lips as she folded her hands on her lap. She wasn't sure what to do. She knew that Professor Lupin was a respectable teacher and would do everything that he said, but what about all the others. The others would think that she herself was playing favoritism and she couldn't have that. What was there to do.

"Professor Lupin," she said, trying to find the right words. "I believe that you would do everything that you say, but there is still the matter of the rule. I cannot just change it for you and not allow all the countless others that have come to me to be with their loved ones. I also cannot just do away with the rule, it has been here since this school was built and therefore is not an easy rule to change. But..." she paused. "I am considering it. I see nothing wrong with a young Professor dating an older student as long as there is nothing else going on behind the scenes, if you understand what I mean. I will allow you two to be together, but I ask that you keep it on the down low until I have changed, not taken out, the rule completely. It shouldn't take that long." she paused again. "You will still have certain standards to uphold though Professor. Unless you two are married I want nothing going on between the two of you. No favoritism to young Miss Weasley either."