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Post by Teirra Vincent on Jul 18, 2008 8:58:25 GMT -8
Tears started flowing more heavily as Teirra heard Forest's words. She coulnd't let him never find love again. All people deserved to find love. She couldn't let him love her then never love anyone else when she was gone. When Forest put his arms around her she felt a bit better, but she still could not get that thougth out of her head.
"I can't let you never find love again," she said as she looked up at him. "Everyone deserves to find love and it is jsut not fair if you love me and never love anyone else after I am gone. I don't want to be treated like the girl who has cancer. I want to live a normal life, but with my family it is not possible. They shelter me from everything."
Teirra continued to look at him. How was she to make the best of this? She was dieing and only her family and now Forest knew. It killed her inside to knwo that her family would never treat her like a normal person instead of liek a person with cancer.
"I will only accept your love if you promise me one more thing," she said. Her tears now had stopped.
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Post by Forest Juliet on Jul 18, 2008 9:10:39 GMT -8
Forest could feel the tears on his shirt as he held her. He was true to his words, but what she said almost got him to think. No. He did love her and no one else. She would be the only one. He was doing this for himself. "I don't want to treat you like the girl who has cancer. I want to treat you like a normal person. I really do love you Teirra." he whispered as he held her.
He wanted to treat her like a normal person. Forest looked down at her and nodded. "What is this promise?" he asked softly. He would do anything, except if it was to love another person. That he could not do and would not do.
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Post by Teirra Vincent on Jul 18, 2008 9:22:02 GMT -8
When she heard his words she smiled slightly to herself. Maybe for once she would be treated normal by someone who did know about her cancer. That was a wonderful thought. She had always longed to be treated normal ever since she was diagnosed. Of course she wasn't, but maybe now she would be.
"You have to please promise me that after I am gone you will allow your heart to find love agian. It doesn't have to be right away. Hearts take a while to heal, but please let yours speak to you when I am gone. It will tell you when it is ready and I hope you listen to it," Teirra said then rested her head on hsi chest.
She hoped that he would promise her this, but she knew that he might not want to do it. Teirra just didn't want hm to have the memory of her holding him back from finding love again. People were able to love more than once and she didn't want him to have love for such a short time then lose it, never to find it again.
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Post by Forest Juliet on Jul 18, 2008 9:53:36 GMT -8
Forest stared over at her at what she said. He bit his lip. He wondered what he could do. He wanted to promise but he knew he wouldn't be able to promise. He let out a soft sigh and looked over at her. "I won't promise, but i will try" he told her. He didn't want to love another, but if she wanted him to, he would at least try.
Forest closed his eyes, before he opened them. He gently leaned down and kissed her softly, before he pulled back and stared down into her eyes.
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Post by Teirra Vincent on Jul 25, 2008 6:26:35 GMT -8
When Forest's lips touched against hers, Teirra smiled. They were so soft, just like she had imagined. It felt wonderful to kiss him, but she still felt like he needed to priomise her that. She felt so horrible if he loved her, but vowed to never find love again. That to her would be the worst thing in the world.
"You have to try your very hardest," Teirra said as she looked at him. "I don't want you to be alone all your life."
Teirra nodded then thought about their conversation the night before. He said that he would be leaving for America right after he graduated from Hogwarts. Was he still going to go? Teirra didn't know. A part of her wanted him to go because it was what he wanted to do for his sister, but another part of her wanted him to stay with her.
"What about America?" Teirra asked suddenly.
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Post by Forest Juliet on Jul 25, 2008 6:37:49 GMT -8
Her lips, felt so soft, so, lovable. He pulled back slowly, only wanting to kiss her again. Never had he kissed someone, so, amazingly beautiful, and so amazingly, good at kissing. He stared down at her and smiled softly. He knew she wanted him to promise, but he rather be alone, than forget about Teirra after she was gone. Forest would never do that, he was not like that.
"I'll try my hardest" he finally nodded as he looked down at her. "I promise that, but i can't promise the other thing."
Forest sighed softly. He had remembered the conversation as well. He had said he would be going to America. Since they where not after him, he might be able to get a job in London, no they would probably get him to get to Rain.
"I can stay here for my last year, and then go. That way i can protect both of you" he nodded softly as he looked down at her.
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Post by Teirra Vincent on Jul 25, 2008 6:48:39 GMT -8
Teirra sighed softly when Forest said that he would promise to try, but he would not promise the other thing. That seemed to be all that Teirra was going to be able to get him to promise to do. She bit her lip as she thought. She couln't image him never finding love after she ws gone. With a small smile a picture flashed into her head of him meeting someone.
"Fine, I guess i will settle for that," Teirra said with a smile. "Oh good. I don't know what I would do if I didn't have you with me...I mean after graduation it is going to be really hard for me to keep fighting this...It's already hard to fight."
Teirra stopped talking and looked back up at Forest, wanting to kiss the soft lips of his. She leaned up, hoping he would get the idea of what she was doing and lean down and kiss her. She had no idea how she was going to do fighting her cancer after graduation. Her eighteenth birthday, that the doctors said she would probably not live to, would be coming up fast soon after.
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Post by Forest Juliet on Jul 25, 2008 6:59:09 GMT -8
Forest looked down at her and sighed. He suddenly saw a look, and somehow knew she figured he would meet someone. He couldn't have it. No, he couldn't meet someone else, but he had promised to try. Forest bit his lip and sighed softly. "You are mean when it comes to negosiating" he whispered and chuckled softly.
"I'll be fighting with you. Ever step of the way, i will be fighting with you" he told her softly, as he stared into her eyes.
He saw what she wanted to do, and he wanted this as well, he leaned down, and kissed her soft lips gently. He deepened it only a little as he kissed her. Forest held her tightly, but gently as to not hurt her, and continued to kiss her.
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Post by Teirra Vincent on Jul 25, 2008 7:09:06 GMT -8
"It comes from having two older brothers," Teirra said with a smile.
When he said that he would be fighting with her ever step of the way Teirra smiled. She knew that would help her so much, but the fate would eventually be the same. They would probably be able to fight it longer, but it would of course end in Teirra giving her life. It was sad, but Teirra was beginning to be okay with it.
When he leaned down and kissed her Teirra smiled. She couldn't believe how fantastic this all felt. Having his lips against hers was wonderful. When she felt how gently he was holding her she pulled back slowly from their kiss and looked up at him with soft eyes.
"Don't be gentle. I am not that fragile," she said as she looked him in the eyes.
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Post by Forest Juliet on Jul 25, 2008 7:27:50 GMT -8
"Ahh yes, i almost forgot" he chuckled lightly, before he sighed. When he looked into those soft eyes, he felt so sad. When she had pulled back, he blinked a few times. What he heard, made his heart sink.
"I am really sorry. I forgot, that i had told you, i would treat you like a regular person, but here i am holding you like you are not. Please forgive me princess" he whispered and kissed her again, holding her tighter, afraid to let her go.
Forest couldn't believe that he had been doing the opposite of what he was actually supposed to treat her like.
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Post by Teirra Vincent on Jul 25, 2008 8:09:10 GMT -8
Teirra bit her lip as she looked up at Forest. She had known this was going to happen, she had jsut thought that maybe, just maybe she would have been treated differently. When he held her tighter Teirra smiled. She wanted to stay in his arms forever and never ever leave.
"Don't be sorry. It is something that everyone tends to do without thinking," she said as she nodded.
Teirra coudl feel her heart beating, trying to come out of her chest. This was like nothing she had ever felt before. Never had a guy made her feel this way. She lvoed the feeling that Forest gave her. I made her so happy to be with him.
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Post by Forest Juliet on Jul 25, 2008 8:14:13 GMT -8
He pulled back gently and looked down at her. "Please, I truly am sorry" he whispered, as he looked saddened. Forest never wanted to let her go. He was to afraid. Forest pulled Teirra to him, and held her tightly.
"Teirra...I think...I love you" he whispered as he looked down at her. He had never felt like this with any other girl that he had dated. Especially the last one. He bit his lip, as he stared down at her, afraid she might be freaked out, and push him away.
He would understand if she did so. Everyone did, because he wasn't all that Slytheriny, and because of his sister. He hoped that she wouldn't do that, but again, he would understand.
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Post by Teirra Vincent on Jul 25, 2008 8:23:30 GMT -8
"Please, don't be sorry," Teirra said as she looked up at him.
When Teirra heard the next thing he said her heart sank. How could he love her? He had just met her last night. Was it even possible to love someone just a few short hours after you had met them? Well, there was love at first sight, but Teirra didn't believe in it.
"Forest..." Teirra said, not knowing what to say to him. "I-I don't knwo what to say. I mean. I have never felt this way when I was with anyone. I don't know of it is love or if it is just something else. I hope you don't mind if I don't tell you that I love you back until I know for sure."
Teirra looked down toward the ground. She felt bad that he had said I love you to her and she wasn't able to say it back to him. It made her feel horrible. She didn't knwo how she felt about him. She really cared for him, btu she didn't know if it was love.
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Post by Forest Juliet on Jul 25, 2008 8:58:02 GMT -8
"No, don't worry about it. It was wrong to say this, right after we had just met. I just, i..." he looked down at the ground unsure of what else to say. What else could he say. He wasn't made or upset that she hadn't said that she loved him. He just, he loved her, but he didn't know how to respond to it.
Forest let out a soft sigh and closed his eyes. "Im a dumba.s.s. aren't i?" he asked softly as he looked over at her, his eyes open then. Now he stared back at the lake and closed his eyes again. He let out a soft sigh.
Forest knew he had messed everything up with those three stupid words. He beat himself up inside, because he knew he shouldn't have said it, but he did.
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Post by Teirra Vincent on Jul 25, 2008 9:36:51 GMT -8
"You are not a dumba.ss," Teirra said with a chuckle.
It was true. Teirra didn't think any less of him since he had told her that he loved her. Yes, it was a bit sudden for thinking that, but if that was the way he felt how could Teirra tell him differently. People wer entitiled to their own opinions. They were allowed to think and saw whatever they wanted to.
"You are nowhere near a dumba.ss," Teirra said with a smile.
She leaned against Forest and let out a soft sigh. She loved the feeling that she got when she was near him. It was like nothing she had ever experienced before.
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